I don’t really know why, but every single night I stay awake and experience some of the lowest moods ever. For some weird reason, the outer darkness and loneliness at this time of day seems to heighten my inner negative feelings. I hate it… a lot to be honest.
This always makes me question silly things, such as “does everyone hate me?”, “do I really have to wake up ever again?”
I really wish that falling asleep was simpler; it takes forever and is usually filled with dreams of food, failing and worry.
I find that night time makes me more depressed, and it’s usually because at night, that’s when we are thinking the most, because we aren’t doing anything to distract us. So all the thoughts I have of guilt, depression, anger, sadness, and other things usually pop up then.
Glad I am not alone.. One day I hope not to feel this way!