I keep on thinking over the last few years and feeling pleased at the things I have been able to do, like deal with some food related challenges, learn to better control anxiety, have more control over depression etc… All of those things are connected to, and only in existance because of the eating disorder, so am I getting better (in some form!) without eating any more?!
I think it would be wrong to say I have achieved nothing, because I know that I am mentally not the same person… But my thoughts about weight, food and my body are all the same, if not even stronger. Some things that I have worked on are improving, but I’m still deliberately aiming to lose weight.
I must be moving forward or backward, and I appear to be going one way in terms of “side effect problems” and the other way in terms of the actual food bit. Who knows!