I’m not sure why, but I suddenly started to think about how and when and why I started to question my eating habits. For me, googling “do I have an eating disorder test” was the beginning of accepting that things weren’t quite right… the weird part is that I still continued to deny (and at times hate) it when others suggested I might have a problem! But a tiny piece of me always knew I think…
When I first started to take the tests (and believe me, I took practically all of them), a bit of me was surprised when they said I had an eating disorder. I suppose that I’ve always had a weird fascination with them, a love for thinness and a fear of my own inadequacy, but I always presumed I was too fat, not good enough and/or ate too much to actually have one! (Ironically, all of those things only reinforce that my thinking is not normal)
Looking back on this strange phase of really not having a clue what was going on with me, I now see that those anonymous quizzes were a vital thing, and that I was far more honest on those than I was/am able to be with a gp. I now also realise that the fact I was thinking about having an ed and taking the time to do the assessments is a sign of a problem in itself.
Don’t know where this post is going really… just wanted to give my two cents about the value of online quizzes, as without them I may never have come to terms with my problems at all. If anyone is worried about themselves or a friend, I would take a couple, cos the questions aren’t all that different to those I’ve had to answer with a gp (and it is 20 times harder to be honest to a real person!)