I have finally realised that neither anorexia or bulimia make me feel good. The only way to truy have control of my body is to stop flipping between eating disorders. One always leads to the other and I am perpetually on edge about it all. I’m not saying I can wake up tomorrow morning and be calm, happy and recovered, but right now, I am making these promises to myself:
1. not to eat below or above my calorie range
2. not completely starve myself on a really stressful day
3. to not take laxatives
4. to eat as calmly as possible
anadancer 