As usual, I am pondering whether I even have an eating disorder. I just feel like I need to vent and reassure myself that I’m not just making a fuss about everything…
I perceive myself as disgusting and often feel like I just take up more room than everyone
I have a fear of weight gain. I always say I would rather die than be average or fat.
Every time I feel a strong emotion, my first thought is to control food, make food plans,(or occasionally to binge and obsessively exercise.)
I’m sleep either very lightly or I sleep constantly, often reaching a point of falling asleep as soon as I sit down when I get home.
I’m have an obsessive knowledge of nutritional content & love to talk about and cook it.
I have lost my periods due to my weight and lack of nutrition, and now they are random and light as I’m losing weight again.
I see everything as black and white.
I have panic attacks in the supermarket sometimes and avoid people seeing me buying or eating food.
Yeah.. I think that is a real problem. Cheers to the person who told me I was attention seeking earlier.
I’m not new to being called an attention seeker. It does indeed sound like you would qualify for an eating disorder. Don’t doubt your have a problem (even though I know it’s so easy to fall into that trap; I’m STILL in that trap every once in a while). I think deep down you know it’s more than just a phase.
Yeh, I do know deep down that just under 4 years would be a pretty long “phase”. I guess it is just the disorder trying to protect itself. Everyone doubts they have a problem sometimes! X