In cbt today I learned that an ed sufferer has to be recovered for around a year before the bodies ‘full and hungry’ reflexes work properly again. No wonder I never know what to eat!
Today I have made a goal:
By Christmas I want to be able to sit and eat something, even if it is just one of everything, with my family.
From this moment onwards, I promise to commit to the tasks my therapist sets me. This week I have to eat breakfast, lunch, tea and one snack. No more , no less, no changes. I can’t trust myself, so I need to trust her and her plan.
Fortunately she is brilliant. Friendly, upbeat , informative and focused. She always has a plan for the session and she always asks me very directly about tricky things. For me that’s good , because given the opportunity to keep any suicidal thoughts or specific food things hidden, I will take it! I think that cbt therapists everywhere could learn from her. I just feel so comfortable talking to her, which makes me motivated to go back next week with so good efforts to report.
Night for now.
anadancer 
Wishing you so much luck to fulfil your challenge! It’s absolutely fantastic that you can trust your therapist and go with what she says. Sometimes it is such a relief to hand that responsibility over to someone else just while we learn to do it for ourselves again. You can do this!
Thank you 🙂