Ticking a box

In the next month or two, I will be having my 3rd assessment with an nhs eating disorder service. Having moved to another part of the uk, it will be a new team of people assessing me.
I know I have an eating disorder, or why would I have been in therapy for it where I lived before?! But still, the fear of not ticking a box is ruling the roost. I know I have lost and added various disordered behaviours over time- you know how mental illnesses adapt to maintain themselves in new circumstances- but my feelings are no different. Eating causes distress whether I’m restricting, bingeing, fasting or whatever… It’s always on my mind. I’m always going to “fail with food.”
I’m scared they won’t diagnose me.

One thought on “Ticking a box

  1. You won’t always fail with food! It does get better with a lot of hard work and dedication. You can do this. Whether they diagnose you or not, you know that the thoughts are disordered. They won’t define you!

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