I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve almost been too stressed and confused and busy to articulate anything!
Recently I have found myself in quite a few awkward situations. I don’t deal well with being uncomfortable: I get away, or I simply become speechless.
As an obsessive individual, I am perpetually doing small things to tidy up and/or to ease the stress induced by mess. But of course most of the people I know don’t think, or behave like me, and so sometimes it’s like others take advantage (not always knowingly) of my compulsions.
Another thing I can’t handle is conflict. I hate being wrong, but I hate hurting people’s feelings more. Everything ends up creating inner guilt.
Anyway, enough of that crap…
The recent heatwave in England has helped me be less depressed, as I’ve got out the house more and spent time with friends. I’m so grateful for the people I have in my life, but I feel sadness that I’m such a complicated individual to be friends with!
Life can really suck, but I get to do something I love everyday, and have got awesome people with whom I share those experiences.
Wow… A positive post…. That’s a rarity!