I have always been active. As a child I did a lot of sports, which faded out as I got progressively more serious about dancing and musical theatre. Despite never being lazy, my eating disorder has always relied on me doing extra exercise to have done enough.
A couple of days ago I walked to the local pool, having planned to swim at least 20 lengths. It was closed and I was so angry. It was the first moment I’ve ever realised that I couldn’t cope with not exercising. I suppose this hasn’t occurred before because I’ve always had x class later that day, or had already cycled to x place or whatever. Well…. It sucked. All I could think about was what I needed to do so that I hadn’t been lazy.
Fuck you ed.
anadancer 
Maybe you want to check out her posts on exercise addiction (if you don’t already follow her):
athlete_recovering
https://athleterecovering.wordpress.com/
She has amazing posts about this topic that showed me a lot of things… Might be interesting for you too 🙂
Stay strong hun ❤
No, don’t be sorry! I don’t already follow her 🙂 thanks! Hope you’re having a good day xx
Hope you do too 🙂 even though it’s 01:40h here 😛 middle of the night 😉
(Sorry for advertising but I like her posts a lot she has good Thoughts on all this ED shit 😉 )