So it’s been a while since I wrote on here. I’ve had things in my head that I wanted to blog about, but for some reason I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I think it’s hard for me to openly admit that life isn’t perfect. I wanted my update to be this inspirational post full of successes, but that is unrealistic.
Instead, life has been changeable. Not perfect, but a journey. For the most part I haven’t done anything out of the ordinary, but that’s ok. Just spending time walking around a garden centre with my auntie and my mum is enough. I’m thankful for the time we’ve spent together so far this holiday.
Mental health wise things have been up and down, but that’s how it goes. It’s never going to be straightforward, but for the first time I think I’m ok with that.
I always set goals for myself when summer comes and I think I’m doing alright. Again, I haven’t done all the things I said I would exactly the amount of times I planned to, but I have done them. I wanted to enjoy being with the people I love, which I am. I wanted to keep up my fitness, which I am. I wanted to care for my injured foot, which I am.
I haven’t done everything perfectly, but I’m learning that that doesn’t mean I failed. I am working on things. Nothing happens overnight… And that’s absolutely ok.
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I completely feel you on the whole inspirational post thing. Sometimes I don’t post for that exact reason. But the thing is, what you don’t realize is, you have followers because we like your blogs for YOU…not “inspiration” per say. This is the life of eating disorders–constant roller coaster. Frankly, to me it is validating that I am not alone, ya know? I am not alone in my struggles. It took me a while to realize that.
So please just blog what comes to you instead of the “perfect” blog–you might find you touch more than you know.
I just came out of therapy and had a hard time talking about OCD issues I have. I’m tired and it was hard, and I’ve come out to this comment. Thanks for making my day 🙂
No stop thank YOU!! Seriously! You validate me! I come from a very invalidating world so to know that what I feel is “normal” and ok experiences we endure in the sense that we struggle, that makes MY day and it makes me feel selfish.
I have OCD tendencies especially when I relapse and man are they a pain!! I can’t imagine struggling with OCD. Supposedly, I learned, OCD is more common with eating disorders because it’s the obsessions and compulsions and that many moons ago there was discussion of eating disorders being a sub category for OCD! Strange right?!
I think that’s true, and I guess it kinda makes sense because eating disorders do make you obsessive.
It’s always so great to hear you aren’t alone 🙂
I love your blogs. I just got my own blog today.