Mind games. 

My mind has been playing some serious games with me today. I felt really great first thing, then very angry, then tearful, then pissed off, then happy again. I know that moods do vary throughout the day, but the intensity of mine today has been pretty had to tolerate. 
My reflection has shown me at least 10 different versions of myself today, which hasn’t helped. I think the looming start of term is bringing me the annual “I should be thin by now but I’m not” anxiety and guilt. I just hate myself for not being “good enough” at my disorder to even be vaguely skinny. Maybe if classmates thought I’d lost weight then I could finally give this up for good. I can’t believe my reflection, so I need somebody else to tell me the truth  

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