There was a time when I was textbook anorexic. Weighing food, weighing myself, rigid rules, being tired, weight loss, total denial etc. I constantly worry that my anorexia is gone. I was diagnosed with bulimia at one point in the last few years too, but I don’t miss that.
I feel like I’m restrictive again now & that’s been going on a fair while. But I’m not anorexic anymore. I’m just a failure of a trier.
I’m having these feelings at the moment. I’ve definitely lost that label, and it’s a good thing, but I miss being so thin. *hugs*
Hugs back 🙂 people tell me I am still thin, but I feel like I’ve been smaller so now I just must be “normal” xx
I know these feelings too atm! I want to be properly anorexic again but I have so much going on I can’t afford to be, I can’t afford the time and energy it takes so I have to resist the urges xx
Sorry you’re having those thoughts. I feel like anorexia stays with you. It’s always there waiting for you to go back or making sure you keep some of your unhealthy habits. Slippery slope xx
I know – I wonder if anyone ever really truthfully fully recovers xx
I feel this.