As someone with an ED, my body is a big focus, but I’ve realised why the obsession has got worse. In 2 weeks I have my last therapy appointment. Unless I’ve lost weight and she is concerned I will be discharged. I’ve had my allowed nhs sessions and so the only way for more help is if I need seeing by the ed service again. It feels like the pressures on to lose weight. I know I can’t be on my own. I know she would keep seeing me if she could because she knows that too. The nhs is great, but there aren’t enough provisions because there isn’t enough money. It sucks. I’m lay in bed planning how to restrict tomorrow. That’s what can get me help and I know I need it.