As a naturally competitive person, the comparative aspect of my mental illness is huge. I saw somebody who I thought looked perfect at the gym today and immediately felt like I was a failure. I don’t like feeling this jealously towards people, but sometimes I can’t help it (especially if it’s a stranger like in this scenario). I’ve seen this person twice now and it’s winding me up that not only do I not look like her, but also that I can’t let it go enough for me to stop hating myself quite so much. I now feel bad for being so jealous, and equally just as bad for not looking how she does.
Why are eating disorder a competition? They shouldn’t be, but I guess that obsessional drive keeps the behaviour going. Is there an eating disorder without obsession?
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Sometimes I wonder why eating disorders aren’t in the same category as OCD. There is a high correlation and connection between diagnosis with an eating disorder aaaand OCD or OCD symptoms.
AMEN! I actually had CBT for my OCD a while ago, and although I’m not usually compulsive now about switching things off etc, my obsessions about food are very obvious to me now
Weird right? We don’t even realize it until it’s pointed out by someone else. Then I became more self conscious at first like OMG did more people notice?! But most don’t.