My first 2 working days have been so different from what I imagined. I think that’s always the way though, isn’t it? I’m the only English dancer, and learning choreography in Spanish has been physically and mentally powering. I feel more tired than usual, as I imagine my brain is working a bit harder to think in Spanish for a number of hours everyday. Another member of hotel staff is British, but he is sadly leaving tomorrow 😦 I will miss being able to babble at my usual speed to somebody who can relate to me on that basic level of our shared nationality.
Getting to know all the guests of the hotel is nice- especially as many of them take a liking to me if they’re English! Tomorrow is my first performance, so fingers crossed it goes well 🌟 a couple of the songs we are dancing to are some of my all time favourites which I’m absolutely loving.
Now the not so great… organisation is appalling. Nobody gives me any information in advance. I couldn’t tell you what I’m doing when, or where, or with whom! It’s so annoying, especially as I then feel my superior acts very shirty when I ask questions. I don’t like to judge to quickly, however so far he seems lazy and useless at being a motivator and a leader. As I do love dancing and also enjoy teaching the fitness activities I don’t need anyone to give me a smile on my face, but he just lacks personality. I’d like to give him the benefit of the doubt, but I think this might just be the case…
Due to lack of good communication, my room setup was not as specified and I’ve had to explain over and over that this needs to be guaranteed to be fixed. I think this is done, but I’m nervous until it’s actually happened 🙈
My eating disorder is having a mixed experience. On the one hand, the food sucks, so I’m hoping to lose weight, but I also feel like when I leave the hotel grounds I’m unsafe in regards food. It feels like I could start and never stop; and I hate that fear. Hopefully I can have a meal plan sent to me soon and stop the restricting.
Sleep tight everyone xoxo
Omg Spain!! Yayyyy!! Sometimes the space is the change you need for the conquering of these stupid eating disorders!!
Yes, perhaps the new environment will help me to recover and learn how to cope better. Hopefully having a Skype therapy session tomorrow 👌🏻 I good you’re well 🙂