I had Therapy last night (via Skype, as the commute from Tenerife to the UK isn’t an option 😂) and between the talk about food and my thoughts about my recovery and illness, my therapist made such a poignant statement:
If you feel your passion when you’re doing the bits of the work you came to do, you’re in the right place for right now.
And she’s right. All the paperwork, extra tasks, difficult people, that different jobs might come with aren’t what’s important: it’s whether the “meaty” bit of the job makes you feel good. Tomorrow I have a show, and I want to move past any of the extra parts of my day (good, bad, or indifferent) and concentrate on the bit I’m really here for. It seems so obvious now I think about it, but I suppose it’s easy to feel overwhelmed by having a mood cycle all the time. Everyone’s emotions change constantly, and as an over thinker I can get caught up in worry over the thoughts themselves rather than letting go of the bits of the day that don’t matter. For example, whether or not somebody else does their job well shouldn’t affect my judgement of my own day or my own performance. I’m lucky to have a passion and to get to perform several times a week. I want to take in every good moment.
Ps. Moving countries is tiring and I am typing with my eyes struggling to stay open #newculture