Like many with an ED, it is nice to see honest content being shared online during this week. But, instead of posting about how bad my illness is, I’m going to think about how important recovery is instead.
What could my life look like if I work on recovery? It could be more peaceful, happy, and less overwhelming. My life could be healthier on both a physical and mental level. I could truly be the best dancer I can, and therefore enjoy future contracts with a clearer and more present mind than I currently have. Maybe I could be a mother, wife, girlfriend- whatever I decide I want. My days could feel longer without all the obsessions stealing my time. Recovery is essential if I want to have a life involving other people, because people won’t waste their time waiting for me to get better forever. Recovery would mean freedom from the fears about my body and food, or atleast the ability to manage the fears. There are two options: commit to recovery OR devote myself to the disorder and potentially lose my life to the consequences. Not choosing recovery means risking an increase in my depression and suicidal thoughts. Many people love me so I shouldn’t allow myself to keep getting worse. The thought of my body shouldn’t make me think about killing myself, and if not for myself, i could challenge myself to choose recovery for all the people who love and care about me.
Why do you think recovery is necessary?