After the initial positive overwhelm of arriving back in England, I seem to have this sadness and apathy come over me at some point everyday. I just don’t feel good. I’m not sure there’s one particular reason, although there are a few things causing some anxiety for me right now. My mind and body seem to change in mood very quickly, and once the low feelings come, it’s hard to shake.
There have been some really lovely parts of the last few days- seeing my brother, going out with my Mum, making plans to see friends etc etc, however today just felt bleurgh. Bored of getting these feelings everyday, I bought myself a face mask, did some art, cuddled my cats and dogs, and watched some favourite YouTubers of mine. I don’t feel on top of the world, but at least I did something pleasureable (even if I would have enjoyed this time more on a different day).
Depression days can be tiring and annoying, especially when I can’t find the reason why. I always want to analyse and understand everything, and sometimes it just doesn’t work like that.
If any of you are a bit down in the dumps, accept a virtual hug from me! 🙂
Sleep tight xoxo