HELP ME. Not literally (although if that were possible, it would be ideal 😂).
Let me walk you all through my messy brain. I’m feeling hopeless and angry because I don’t know the answer to the questions my brain is endlessly cycling.
Am I thin or fat?
Can I get better and not end up too big?
Does everyone have to gain a lot of weight in recovery?
As anorexia is defined by restriction resulting in weight loss/low body weight, does the label anorexia mean I am thin?
Would somebody big ever be labelled as anorexic by a professional?
If I lose a lot of weight in the next few weeks before a doctors appointment, will they validate my disorder?
I wish I had the energy and sense of calm enough to actually write about all this, but I simply don’t. My brain is on overdrive and I can’t settle to think each thing through.