Although the weekend and the weekdays don’t always take their traditional form in my life, a Sunday evening always feels like a good moment to sit down and plan the week ahead. For me, feeling like I have points to look forward to improves how I feel. However, I do like to be productive, and sometimes that can mean I berate myself for lying on the sofa all afternoon when perhaps that’s what I needed!
In general, my restriction and ED thoughts are pretty bad, and suddenly having time at home to have to deal with it has made me react out of fear I think. The only thing I feel I have to protect me from the scary idea of taking my time at home to recover is IT. Well, how ironic is that?
Although I’m not making good choices about everything, I’ve decided I want to give the Headspace app more of my time this week. I’ve used it quite a bit, but rarely with much consistency (although when I do open it up, I’m always glad I have!) Short, guided meditations aren’t too overwhelming, as I don’t feel pressure to commit a huge chunk of time or to expect a certain outcome. Sometimes it’s just nice to breathe, and for whatever comes into my head to be okay. I’m a terror for judging my thoughts.
I hope the coming week has something good in it for everyone. Xoxo
anadancer 
I’ve wanted to give that app a try many times but then I’m unwilling to pay the monthly charge. Even if I initially like it, when I get to the cut off time, I think to myself that I ought to be able to do this on my own and not have to pay for it then end up deleting the app. I’d love to here a review when you’ve used it for awhile. 🤔
Yeah, I have deleted it too before now. I’ve started again with the basics pack which is free. I think there are 10 you can access before paying.
When I first downloaded it, I didn’t even realise that there was such limited free stuff on there. I’m going to do all the free ones and then decide if I can afford the extra cost or not 🤔