Dietitians, the fat feeling & overthinking central.

I have some goals with my food intake that I’m doing my best to achieve. I’m honestly finding that each day is different. Sometimes I can wake up and eat a full breakfast and feel ok, but other days I’m too uncomfortable with the amount of calories in the meal to eat it. I’ve already realised that I’m soooo used to living in a hungry state, and when I have eaten my breakfast I have fewer thoughts about food and cravings in the following hours. Who would have thought that maybe, just maybe, people who eat normally don’t spend their whole lives overanalysing food? LOL AT MY LIFE 

Today was predominantly very relaxing and equally productive, until a worry came in and brought along with it the fat feeling. Basically any emotion has the power to make me feel fat, and feeling fat then makes me feel angry & disappointed in myself for being as imperfect and flabby as I am. Nothing and nobody can calm my feelings of fatness, and unfortunately that’s just the way it is. 

Do any of you relate to feeling fat? How do you handle it? 

When I get stuck in thought cycles about my body, I find it such a challenge to stop overthinking. This has always been a trait of mine, but it’s been exaggerated by OCD. Fingers crossed the feelings are so strong in the morning

Night xoxo

The 1st appointment

I had my first dietitian appointment today, so I was pretty nervous about meeting somebody new and having to say things aloud. She was really nice though, and guess what my first task is?

Yep. 

You got it. 

Food diary. 

Shocker 😂 I sort of feel a bit apathetic about it because I have done these so many times, but for once I don’t feel overwhelmed by it. All I need to change at first are 2 things that aren’t completely out of control and new.

Haven’t decided exactly how, but I do what to document (what I hope will be) a positive process, so updates are coming!

How are you? Yes you, person reading this? Write in the comments! Xx