There are countless times where my psychological state has stopped me from me doing things. While there are circumstances where this is unavoidable (e.g. Suicidality, panic attacks etc), sometimes continuing to live life and do something can take away the difficult feelings for a while.
Right now I’m still waiting to figure out where my next dance job will be. There are 2 possibilities at present, and the not knowing has been extremely hard for me. I’ve been more restrictive without consciously trying to, I’ve had anxiety from the moment I’ve woken up everyday, and I’ve been strung along waiting for an answer that I’ve yet to solve. The days continue to pass and I’m keeping in mind the advice of a friend I made on my first job:
Don’t waste your time at home. You’ll be going somewhere new soon enough, and be regretting wasting your quality time with family and friends worrying about your next step.
Ive met up with some of my friends, had lots of cuddles with my dogs and cats, and spent time with my mum. But the last few days I just felt myself unable to detach my brain from the job worried at all, so… I booked flights to see my Spanish family and meet the 2 week old babies my cousin just had.
Today might have involved a lot of emailing and waiting for replies, but I did cuddle 2 beautiful babies.
Hope everyone is ok