Some days went by. Oops.
I keep having extreme dips in my mood during the afternoons. This is the time when I feel fatter, more hopeless, unmotivated and useless. Then I do the show for the night and usually feel different afterwards. Logically I realise food could have something to do with this, but I simply feel I shouldn’t need higher intake to feel better.
Today I feel I haven’t achieved much, so I might have to include the days I missed in this…
1. Booked a massage
2. Worked on a dance step I want to improve in the gym
3. Took a walk on my free afternoon (yesterday)
4. Did laundry (sunday)
I can’t even come up with another one. I’m not in the right frame of mind. At the moment I’m trying to improve certain areas of my life, while not doing so in others. It’s like one fighting the other, and I don’t know if it’s possible to do both. Perhaps I will write about it when I feel more like talking about it.
Night for now
I have a friend who is so stuck, she couldn’t even take the dirty dishes out of her sink. She is also in iOP and has made that her goal for months. I finally helped her by making it into tiny steps but wasn’t able to help her further, like with laundry, mainly because I live 136 miles away, sigh. The fact that you got laundry done is most certainly an achievement. I used to feel like I got nothing done but after working with her, I feel like a high achiever if I get even part of my daily list done. 🙂
Sometimes there are just so many thoughts in my mind that the overwhelm makes little things seem like big things! Being far away from friends is hard isn’t it, but sounds like you help as much as you can 🙂